One's anxieties surface strongly when there is cognitive dissonance. Unexplainable as it is, for me it was very palpable that even ice cream couldn't take it away. Not that I eat through my anxieties out, but because I couldn't think of anything to relieve me from them.
As I say, unexplainable...
But I think this was what most McCain supporters felt. They thought that John McCain would win the American election, but they knew that he wouldn't. The US election night was quite special. I got hooked into it that I slept with my computer still running the BBC coverage. I am an complete sucker for maps and statistics - so the television coverage was perfect for me.
I was happy that Obama won purely because of the symbolism of his victory. I don't think there would be a lot of changes in US politics, but there would be a marked change of attitudes from people around the world. It is a nice thought that things would be different. That Guantanamo Bay would be demolished. That imperialistic arrogance be replaced by humble reconciliation. As a cynic It would have been very easy to think that if America voted for Bush, they deserve him. And if McCain and Palin won, America deserved them. But no. I think I am way past being a pessimistic cynic. I still have some hope for the Philippines..
Having said that, I think Obama is charming and a very good orator. He is convincing. Very convincing. Which makes him a bit dangerous really.
...I am feeling better now. Which is again, unexplainable.